Post by ariel on Sept 15, 2009 19:15:42 GMT -5
Hello. First I'd like to say sry because my english is a bit bad.
I try to find help about whats happening to me every month but I dont dare to ask people around of me, Im afraid people would think im crazy
Every month for almost 3 years now, something weird happens to me, something scary. Last time it happened was on the 4th September 2009 night so next time will be around the first week of October.
So...this starts when im sitting on my bed and every1 except me is sleeping. I feel calm inside but not tired (im not tired enough to lay down, still sitting) Usually Im listenning to my mp3 songs (not always).
Then I feel very strange, too calm but also too awaken in a weird way : my heart beats harder and faster and I feel lots of shivers INSIDE of me. I even realised I drool in that time few times and when I realise that, I know its too late. I suddently feel a heat and my body falls of the bed but I dont hurt myself because I fall on my hands and feet. I move faster and im more flexible then normally. My weight seems lighter and I feel like im not tall, maybe because I run like an animal qould run, I dont walk on my feet.
What I look like? I have no idea, I never think to look at myself, I only have one thing in mind : to chase something and make it leave my house. I can't control my body when this happens, I can see all whats going on but I cant control what im doing.
The only thing I think about is to chase that thing and make it leave my house like I said, whats that thing? I have no idea, I can't see it but I know where it is, I know when I trapped it in a corner, I know when it left the house, how I know all this if I cant see the thing? I have no idea, its just something im always sure of, never asking myself these questions.
Im very scared and I wish it could stop, plz help me if u can. It scares me because its weird and I dont understand all this but it also scares me because when this happens, I have a kind of rage inside and this rage/anger for this thing im chasing is so big I'd call it an unhuman rage. Im a calm person and I scare myself when I feel this anger in me in that time.
After the thing left the house, I go back on my bed and it can take time before I move again but im still able to look around and see. When I can move again, im scared and it happens that I find my mp3 is on the floor after.
Any can help me to understand or make it stops?
I try to find help about whats happening to me every month but I dont dare to ask people around of me, Im afraid people would think im crazy
Every month for almost 3 years now, something weird happens to me, something scary. Last time it happened was on the 4th September 2009 night so next time will be around the first week of October.
So...this starts when im sitting on my bed and every1 except me is sleeping. I feel calm inside but not tired (im not tired enough to lay down, still sitting) Usually Im listenning to my mp3 songs (not always).
Then I feel very strange, too calm but also too awaken in a weird way : my heart beats harder and faster and I feel lots of shivers INSIDE of me. I even realised I drool in that time few times and when I realise that, I know its too late. I suddently feel a heat and my body falls of the bed but I dont hurt myself because I fall on my hands and feet. I move faster and im more flexible then normally. My weight seems lighter and I feel like im not tall, maybe because I run like an animal qould run, I dont walk on my feet.
What I look like? I have no idea, I never think to look at myself, I only have one thing in mind : to chase something and make it leave my house. I can't control my body when this happens, I can see all whats going on but I cant control what im doing.
The only thing I think about is to chase that thing and make it leave my house like I said, whats that thing? I have no idea, I can't see it but I know where it is, I know when I trapped it in a corner, I know when it left the house, how I know all this if I cant see the thing? I have no idea, its just something im always sure of, never asking myself these questions.
Im very scared and I wish it could stop, plz help me if u can. It scares me because its weird and I dont understand all this but it also scares me because when this happens, I have a kind of rage inside and this rage/anger for this thing im chasing is so big I'd call it an unhuman rage. Im a calm person and I scare myself when I feel this anger in me in that time.
After the thing left the house, I go back on my bed and it can take time before I move again but im still able to look around and see. When I can move again, im scared and it happens that I find my mp3 is on the floor after.
Any can help me to understand or make it stops?